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Generosity Was a Liability

For nearly eight years, we poured time, energy, and resources into supporting ministry work. We provided digital infrastructure, covered costs, and kept things running in the background. It was never about recognition, only a personal vow of service to the Lord, offered freely and without condition.

There were seasons when resources ran tight. On a few occasions, we asked for a bit of help. The support we received was modest, but appreciated. Still, we absorbed the greater part of the cost ourselves and kept going because we believed in the mission.

Recently, that support was reframed as a “conflict of interest.” That was hard to hear, not because we needed to be needed, but because it seemed to place more weight on the few times we asked for help than on the many years we quietly gave. What was celebrated during difficult seasons began to be seen as a liability when things became more comfortable. Over the years, less than 3% of the total cost was ever offset by occasional assistance, and only when we could no longer sustain the expenses alone, yet the work still had to continue. Even so, that small fraction became the focus, rather than the long-standing financial sacrifice that quietly sustained the work.

So we stepped back. Not out of anger, but because the kind of help we offered is no longer being received in the spirit it was given.

We gave what we could, for as long as we could. That part of our service has ended.
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